I LAY MY LOVE ON YOU;

{Monday, August 28, 2006}

FINE. im jealous ):
im always jealous, heck it.
its like he has a almost PERFECT childhood and me? with almost the same parents?
at 5+ of age, he has flown a kite, got his bronze certificate for swimming, get a 500 piece jigsaw, etc. ?!
my first jigsaw was at 7 or 8 if im not wrong and its only what? 50 piece or something?
and im like 14 and i havent flown a kite? (i know not many people have :/)
i started learning swimming at 7! like hello. now my brother can be groomed into some fast and furious competitive swimmer while i struggle with stupid syncronised swimming.
and he will certainly get more medals/trophy/SHIT than me.
he gets to have a loving father that pampers him and scolds his evil step daughter.
he gets to have lots and lots and lots of memory of his father, and these are like HAPPY moments?
and me? my only two memories of my father is as follow :
1) our last meal together was at some stupid cafe in suntec.
2) he promised to spend my 7th (or is it 8th? or 6th!) birthday with me but he broke his promise and i never saw him again. what a liar. >:/ JERK.
what beautiful memories i have of him eh.
and the thing is, mr chris chan wei zhang and ms karon chung yun lei has the same mother.
life can be so unfair, i forgot the meaning of fair

bball was quite fun lah (:
MAYKUN is damn good ;D
hah, and so is the holickpink.(however you spell it :S)
i love blocking teo :D
and charlyne's group is the only one we lost so far.
i think thats supposed to be good right. :D

aiyuh, im so frustrated and i know its not only because some idiots cut my queue for the water cooler. but i dont know why im frustrated and i cant fix it ):

recess with janice, foong and panshin.
i still cant believe it ):
i know im being really selfish but i really dont want janice to go luhhhh ))))))':

homeecons was independance day?
hah :D library was very shuang :D with the aircon
but the librarian was NOT SHUANG AT ALL. >:/
stupid rude woman.

i hate reflections. ):

FF/F
i think we rock (: im sorry i didnt perform. i know i messed up. my mind wasnt there ): im sorry.
but im glad we did it
especially with all the difficulties we had (:
im really sorry for the mess up. i know we could have done better ):

tek!}
im really glad things are better now :D things being cleared up
never doubt it again our trust okay (:
we all love you, we really do :D

jonn}
eh, im really sorry i messed up.
you were right, my mind was wondering off somewhere else. im sorry.
i promise not to do it again okay. im sorry ):

TEO}
hey thanks alot for like trying to cheer me up, like at the basketball court. i know i cant and im still frustrated but the effort you made really meant alot to me. i really apprieciate it. thank you :D

SAM!}
i know im a great disappointment to you. but i really dont know how to explain things to you.
everything is just so complicated.
maybe im making it complicated myself, maybe i shouldnt have done anything from the start.
but now that i have started, i really have to carry on being wrong.
as wrong as it may be, it has to continue this way. i cant do anything about it now.
what you said and things really hit me very hard. it had like almost the greatest impact on me.
it was just so harsh. and it really affected me alot
(it was even more than coach's)
what i want to say is just that i have really tried my best to make everything right, but it is now beyond my control.
i know what i must do, but it is beyond the stardard of utmost impossibility to do it.
i really hope you will understand. one day.
until then, im sorry. i know the change is necessary, but i cant do it.

im sorry i let you down.
its funny how you seem to be a mother, the ideal one

i cant believe im supposed to be happy.
after crouch scored, after lampard scored
after WE won

when will things turn out right. when will the light shine from the end of the tunnel

gosh teo, i love you <3
and tek <3

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